Little Dreams

"Those who look to to Him are radiant"

that verse is paralleling when Moses comes down from the mountain with the commandments in Exodus. He came down with his face shining because he met with the Lord, his Savior, his Rock, his Refuge. They had to hide his face with a veil.

That story was pretty powerful for me today. Do i walk away in 'radiance' after meeting with the Father? if so, i think often its short lived.

I'm continuing to arrive at a place of peace with where i am at. Writing papers, studying for economic exams, writing insights on discussion boards, recording inventory both perpetually and periodically...this is my tending sheep. If i am student, i can be student to the glory of God and for the good of those around me and myself. Working at the hotel is tending the sheep (it often times feel quite literal). If the good Lord Jesus has seen this fit to be my lot in life for this time, than i am grateful it is only by the work of His spirit I am moving from wrestling to resting in heart.

Now you may be wondering what on earth this has to do with peacock plates. A couple weeks ago i was having a wander around Pier One with Amanda as she picked out pillows and paintings for her house, and i found these little gems. I know they are silly little glass plates (the picture doesn't do them justice, promise!), but for the first time i started to dream a little - maybe the school thing, which hopefully will lead to the career thing is an okay place to be headed. I a white washed apartment decorated in rich greens and blues with fun little accents like these silly little plates.

I discovered that they were purchased, and have my name on them for Christmas. Yes, these little plates led to a place in my heart that i haven't ever really ventured. Perhaps for the fear of the unknown, or for fear of disappointment, i always struggle to 'dream a bit.' But these plates, priced at a ridiculous $15, stand for a bit more to me.

I'm not sure where the tending sheep will lead, but i'm less afraid of it today than i was yesterday. And i'm really hoping that my 'tending' will lead to an A on my accounting test tomorrow. *deep breathe.