I often find that my narrow-mindedness is my biggest downfall.

My inability look beyond the past, beyond the present. My inability to see the blessing in past, the blessing in my moment. I think we all tend to view our world through our filter.

Through my desire, my dream, my need. Through my pain, my longing, my regret.

“But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope: the steadfast love the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.”

His love, never ceases – not dependent on my circumstances. His hope – not dependent on my circumstances. His abundant mercies – not dependent on my circumstances.

I need this today. I don’t feel anchored.  I feel unsettled, insecure, uncertain. Frustrated and ashamed of my neediness. Like I've single handedly ruined my reputation. Like I’m stripped of my strength, exposed in my weakness. His love, His hope, His abundant mercies – not dependent on these circumstances.

Watch & pray; I hear that whisper. Watch healing. Wait for wholeness. Lean in, and let Jesus continue to do his work. 


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"If we only had eyes to see and ears to hear and the wits to understand, we could know that the Kingdom of God in the sense of holiness, goodness, beauty is as close as breathing and is crying out to be born both within  ourselves and within the world; we could know that the Kingdom of God is what all of us hunger for above all other things even when we don't know its name or realize that it's what we're staving to death for. The kingdom of God is where our best dreams come from and our truest prayers. We glimpse it all those moments when we find ourselves being better than we are and wiser than we know. We catch sight of it when at some moment of crisis a strength seems to come to us that is greater than our own strength. The Kingdom of God is where we belong. It is home, and whether we realize it or not, i think we are all of us homesick for it. " Frederick Buechner