psalm 126.5, then and now.

It's a little overwhelming really - this thought of moving life, moving my feet to a new place. As i have previously written, there is SO MUCH blessing and excitement in anticipating this new adventure, but there this is the seasons of nothing but sheer details.

I faithfully matched my feet with my words this last week. My current employer now knows that i am officially leaving in June. And it was as a placed that news out there, all the sudden connections are being banked on. This grew my confidence that I am walking in the right direction, and yet selfishly and humanly, i'm still bogged down by fears of little details.

I turned my lamp out last night, ready to call the long day over, and i just felt in my spirit there was more the Lord wanted to share with me.

"This is what the LORD says to his anointed / to subdue nations before him and to strip kings of their armor / to open doors before him so that gates will not be shut: / I will go before you and will level the mountains; / I will break down gates of bronze and cut through bars of bronze and cut through bars of iron. / I will give you the treasures of darkness, riches stored in secret places/ so that you may know that I am the LORD, the God of Israel, who summons you by name." Isaiah 45

I read these words and heard, knew, was reassured beyond a shadow of a doubt this truth is intertwined with Pslam 126. - those who sow in tears of sorrow WILL reap in joy.

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T"hey that sow in tears shall reap in joy - Though the sowing of seed is a work of labor and sorrow - often a work so burdening the farmer that he weeps - yet the return - the harvest - is accompanied with rejoicing. The truth is expressed in a general form, as illustrating the idea that enterprises which are begun under many difficulties, and which require much labor, will be crowned with success, and that the joy is more than an equivalent for all the weariness and sorrow."

All the long nights spent wondering how and why my life had melted into a formless liquid, I am walking into part of the answer. These times are still BUSY, FULL, and i'm still WAITING on the promise. But there is a total peace that comes from knowing my savior is going before me, that He is leveling the mountains, breaking down gates, cutting through bars, to secure my future. Those treasures of his presence in the darkness, the riches from the secret and unknown seasons of my life...the joy is Himself. He has called me by name, and the future unfolds in His gracious timing, in His gracious way.

The joy is security that wraps around my reality as i look into this unknown future.

The reminder today is to slow down enough, take time out of the busy schedule, so simply watch and see the unveiling of His goodness and power in and over my life.